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its fine [narrator voice, it was not fine]
i knew it was possible after we decided to defy him

anyway
its not your fault
or anyone's but his
i guess that's why i clicked a little with kakyoin
we both left a message to be found to turn the tides
it sucks but it's better that anyone figured it out at all

can i ask you a stupid question
since you talked to him
or saw his memories, maybe it was in there
maybe you know

was he pissed at me
did he think anything about me before it happened
if he were still here i'd ask him but he's not
so

nah nothing like that
i think mostly he just didn't know how to process it
not that i do either
but it never even crossed his mind that he was pissed at you

maybe he was just sad at most with how things turned out

it feels like he should be pissed at me
i don't know why
maybe because it'd be easier if he was somehow
like at least then i'd be right that i deserve it

it feels like he should be screaming at me and hitting me or something
yelling at me how it's my fault
except maybe that's not really him
maybe that's just me

i don't know
that's a lot of stupid stuff that i thought about erasing but i guess i decided not to for some reason

and
for what it's worth i guess
if your message was anything like his was
then you saved people's lives

i don't know if that helps
but i would have told him that too
it made a difference
it made all the difference

im gonna tell you the same thing i told giorno.
that it's not your fault.
because i know kakyoin would believe that too
and hell, it sounds like you two were actually friends
so that really has to count for something

i get wanting to blame yourself
i really do
but you didn't do anything wrong

i think if anything he'd just be glad you were successful in killing that son of a bitch

i appreciate you saying that
really i just
well
dont worry about what i wish were different
it is what it is and im trying to make my time here count

giorno
i'm guessing that's a friend of yours
or maybe not a friend but at least
a guy like me

i hope kakyoin knew he was my friend
maybe my best friend
i don't think i ever said it but i just figured he would know
i hope he knew
i hope he didn't think he was dying for some guy who didn't think he was his best friend

i guess
that goes for you and avdol both, right
i mean you know he's
he didn't make it out either

giorno's a piece of shit that everyone else likes
but he did what he had to do

im pretty sure kakyoin considered you a friend
i couldn't see how that would be otherwise
i think maybe he was pretty happy going with you guys

...yeah. i know about mohammed
he hasn't experienced it yet
but he knows
and i know
he deserves way better
but i cant do shit about that

we had a dog like that
i mean he had a stand, he wasn't just some dog
he was a shitty piece of work but he wasn't so bad

actually
avdol didn't know that he was one of the ones we lost
iggy i mean
the dog

i sort of forgot but i think he was the only one who really liked iggy
anyway i guess what i'm saying is
if a dog shows up one day and avdol keeps feeding him coffee-flavored gum
the dog is actually a stand user
and just be careful around him because he's bad-tempered

i told him how to change it
avdol
i don't know if he'll be able to
maybe we'll all die if he does but if he wants to change it he can

he talked about iggy
and what a shitter he was to jp
but i'll keep it in mind if i see a boston terrier
tho i'd definitely not compare giorno to a dog
a dog deserves better

well
i hope he can
for his sake
even if he did change things there's no real guarantee i'll ever see him if i end up disappearing from this place
but i want him to be happy and alive so
that's worth it to me

he was a little shit to everyone
but i guess in the end he saved polnareff's life

so are you guys
uh
you and avdol

you moonlace or whatever then, right

it doesn't bother me
it's none of my business
i just want to know
so i'm not the only guy who doesn't know or something

it's more than just moonlacing
but i didn't wanna overstep or something
anyway
we're seeing each other and i love him

it's not like i've made a big announcement or something about it
but hey now you know

leone abbacchio
for the record

oh you're that guy that josuke knows

okay well
avdol and i have been through a lot of shit together
and you seem like the kind of guy who'll get it
what i'm about to do i mean

so okay
good
make him happy or i'll beat the shit out of you

also if you ever want to hear some really funny stories about him
look me up i guess

oh josuke was talking about me huh
he's an ok kid
dont tell him i said that

ha
if i make him miserable i'd deserve it
so keep your promise asshole

and hey
im always down for embarrassing the fuck out of him
i'll keep it in mind

yeah he mentioned you and a girl
anyway what would i tell him
i didn't hear you say anything

yeah looking back on it we did some wild stuff on our trip
it didn't seem so wild at the time
but i guess looking back

did you know kakyoin knows how to hotwire a car
yare yare it's always the quiet ones

a girl huh

oh you have no idea
he shared some crazy shit with me
turned out we had way too much in common
except im far from quiet

yeah
from his hometown i guess?
he put you guys in the same group so he must think you're alike

anyway did kakyoin tell you about the airplane
the stand was called tower of gray

it was the first time i saw him fight when he was actually himself
it was great
kakyoin is really something else

not sure who he meant but that's ok
if he meant someone important to me that's reimi
she's family as far as im concerned

oh god there were two airplane incidents??
what is with airplane disasters

you really respect him huh

it's because we got on the plane with my grandfather
i'm pretty sure jiji has crashed every plane he's ever been on
he's the luckiest bastard i've ever seen
annoying as hell but he's a born cheater and that goes for death too

oh right that was her name
reimi
he said she's not alive either
i think that's what he meant about you guys being the same
this being a second chance for both of you
i think that's what he said

anyway kakyoin was
it was easy to be around him
even if we weren't talking
i knew he understood even if i wasn't talking

that probably doesn't make a lot of sense

luckiest and yet shit luck with planes
well if it's any consolation even our plane didnt really survive our trip
so its not just you

reimi's been dead way longer than anyone else
but here she can be alive and finally have something almost like a normal life
you know
with the moon people
but yeah
she's important to me
she's family far as im concerned

no i get it about kakyoin
and that kind of friendship
it's a rare thing but it's nice to have someone who knows what you mean even without saying a word
that's not often
especially when trying to say what you really mean is a real pain in the ass

well now all of a sudden i don't feel so great about getting on a plane back home
i mean to go back home once i'm already back home
whenever that is
yare yare getting kidnapped to outer space makes things complicated

i guess living with moon people is better than a lot of things
i'd rather have avdol here living with the moon people than whatever he gets back home
he's got someone who loves him here
so that's pretty good

polnareff is like that too but different
with him it's not about what i say or don't say
it's just that he was there

i don't know if that makes sense
it's like
when you go through some shit and no one gets it except the people who were there
you can't explain it to anyone who wasn't there
but the ones who were there know
so they get it

polnareff was there with me

yeah good luck with that whenever you get back

im personally not in a hurry to get back to the afterlife
heaven? i guess it was heaven. or on the way to it. i don't know, but i was definitely dead.
but as much time as i've got with him here, i'm gonna try to use it wisely

no i get it.
there aren't a lot of people i feel comfortable with
or people i think who are gonna understand my special brand of bullshit

jp's still kind of stupid tho
i say that with a lot of fondness
he's an ok guy
apparently my friends end up meeting up with him after i die
crazy right?

is there really such a thing as heaven
i mean
i'm pretty sure i saw someone go there but i didn't know if

wait
does that sound weird

that i'm pretty sure i saw someone's...
i don't know
ghost?

it wasnt hell i can tell you that
whatever i experienced im not sure
but it was the afterlife for sure

that's not weird at all
you probably saw a ghost
reimi used to be one

so there is something like that
i guess that explains a lot
explains where jiji went too until i dragged him back

so they dragged you guys out of heaven to come here
that's kind of fucked up
that they can do that, i mean

what made his circumstances so unique?

i don't know if it's really on purpose
the scientists claim they don't know anything
but you know what? even if it was on purpose, i'd thank them.
i wouldn't have met reimi or mohammed then
or had a second shot with some of my friends.
people can bitch about this moon shit all they want and yeah sometimes it sucks, but i'd rather be here than anywhere else right now so long as they're with me.

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