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Don't start with that shit.

So in all the time you've been hunting around gunning for people's Stands, have you ever actually asked anybody what we do with them? You don't really think they're just toys we have for fun and games and cool tricks, do you?

[nnnnnope, we are not talking about the stupid shit we did after just getting done talking about different stupid shit we did.]

I'm...not an idiot, Jotaro. Even if Bruno didn't tell me why you shouldn't really show them off, do you really think I could still think that? At least three of you have done some kind of healing. You don't just discover that because it's a toy. I've heard about the kind of people you're up against back home, I've...seen for myself what Gold Experience can do.

...I think it makes them happy, though. To get to use them in a way that doesn't matter, that just...makes someone else happy.

Are you even listening?

Fine, I'll say it frankly. You're really damn lucky you didn't meet me the way you're apparently meeting a lot of other people, because from the way it sounds, if you had I would've killed you.

Don't bullshit me with some excuse about how you're already a ghost and try to make light of this. You have no idea what someone's been through, they're in a new and weird and disorienting place for what, a couple days? Maybe a couple of hours? And all of a sudden you're what they have to deal with, and now apparently "accidentally freaking people out" wasn't just a fluke when it was me.

They forgave you already? Probably. I'm not so sure about the forgetting.

[She flinches -- not because he's angry but because he's right.]

...Fine, so I am an idiot.

[She could also pick apart words and say that she'd said the two would want to forget, not that they had, but... There's no point. He'd just say she was running from the issue again. In fact, just about anything she thinks to follow that up with could be twisted to be that way, so instead her lips just flatten to a thin, frustrated line.]

You're something.

[...]

If someone doesn't point out when you're being stupid, how the hell are you ever supposed to know you're being stupid?

Maybe you pay attention to people and go "oh, yeah, that was clearly fucked up, wasn't it?" and feel like crap for a while.

[Like. She knows. She didn't know how to stop doing it, but she knows.]

Well, I'm not good with people. I need to be hit over the head with it.

So maybe that's what I hand out to other people right back, and that doesn't mean I'm right, either.

[Hmmmmn.]

I feel like you usually are. That's why I hate it.

Well, someone's got to be.

[THANKS JOTARO]

I just say what I think, from the way it looks where I stand. That's all.

[asshole]

...Alright. Then maybe you can tell me what you think about the fact that you love Giorno and I love Giorno, but he must be somewhere between the two of us and I'm over here seeing how you're a good person, but this shit keeps happening.

...What?

So you're pissed because you think I don't think you're a good person, or something?

[She just groans and buries her face in her hand again. Why are you like this.]

I'm frustrated because I can't figure it out. But then, I can get along with Abbacchio, so fuck me, maybe I'm just one of the "bad guys".

[The quotes are palpable and dripping with sarcasm. Finally she shifts so she's resting her chin in her palm instead.]

...Do you not think I'm a good person?

I haven't hung up on you.

[Which is not actually a good point, necessarily, but this is also Jotaro we're talking about.]

Are you sure this is really something you want to hear?

[True. That sure is a thing he hasn't done.]

Because you've been so sparing in your opinions before now?

[sigh...]

Be honest, then. Would you give a single damn about me, if it weren't for the fact that I have a Stand, I'm one of Giorno's friends, and you haven't added me to your trading-card collection yet?

I'm not saying that to be a dick to you. I'm saying honestly, do you know anything about me that would warrant something like that?

[More silence while she looks thoughtful.]

I...know you're going to teach a baby otter to swim. That's pretty cool. [...] But no, honestly the Giorno thing is the main appeal.

[And now she's pointing at Jotaro through the screen.]

Now you answer me. If you didn't know I was talking to you mostly because of those reasons, would you be as resistant as you're being now? Like, say I was still trying and you didn't have that idea of me in your head already. Would you have such a problem with me?

...Probably, but you're a pushy girl who doesn't know a whole lot about me and doesn't seem to like being patient.

[He shrugs, as best he can with an otter on his chest.]

If it makes you feel better, I'm not going out of my way to treat you differently, or anything. Is that what you thought, that I'd decided to just shit on you especially or something?

Honestly? No, it...doesn't make me feel better. At least if you were I'd feel like I could tell you to cut that shit out.

[After a moment, Izabel shakes her head.]

I don't know what I thought. You're so weird, I just... I don't get you a lot of the time. And I don't like being patient, life is short.

You'd probably get farther than you have if it weren't always about what you like and want.

...Why do you think I'm friends with Giorno and Kakyoin? Any ideas?

Because who the fuck wouldn't like them, they're fantastic.

[But that isn't her real answer, and she tugs her hat down over her eyes with a noisy sigh.]

Gonna go ahead and say it might have something to do with that whole thing where they want to do stuff for other people to make them happy and they give it their all whether they should or not, with what you just said about me.

...Actually, with both of them I started out pretty sure I was going to have to fight them.

[He closes his eyes a minute, more seemingly lost in thought than out of any desire to ignore her.]

Both of them give a damn about something bigger. Not just "about other people, instead of themselves". They believe in something. So I believe in them.

When are you going to show me that?

[She knows this. She knows all of this, so it shouldn't bother her, and yet...]

That's not the kind of thing that's so easy to just go "here, have this" about. Why should I feel like I have to tell you when I haven't even told Giorno explicitly because he's good at reading people like a book and you just admitted you're bad at people oh my god.

[Yep, sure had an argument with herself there and is just more frustrated for it. The hat only gets pulled down further. It's eating her.]

...Listen. I'm not impressive, or anything. Not like them.

"Why should I feel like I have to tell you"? Really?

Listen. [It's more emphasized this time, an actual request.] Not "why should I have to tell you" but "why should I feel like I have to". Do you get the difference?

No, I don't.

[And that, at least, is honest, and more on the side of confused than harsh.]

Shouldn't you feel like that because you want to forge that kind of bond with someone? In the long term, isn't that the point?

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