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...What?

So you're pissed because you think I don't think you're a good person, or something?

[She just groans and buries her face in her hand again. Why are you like this.]

I'm frustrated because I can't figure it out. But then, I can get along with Abbacchio, so fuck me, maybe I'm just one of the "bad guys".

[The quotes are palpable and dripping with sarcasm. Finally she shifts so she's resting her chin in her palm instead.]

...Do you not think I'm a good person?

I haven't hung up on you.

[Which is not actually a good point, necessarily, but this is also Jotaro we're talking about.]

Are you sure this is really something you want to hear?

[True. That sure is a thing he hasn't done.]

Because you've been so sparing in your opinions before now?

[sigh...]

Be honest, then. Would you give a single damn about me, if it weren't for the fact that I have a Stand, I'm one of Giorno's friends, and you haven't added me to your trading-card collection yet?

I'm not saying that to be a dick to you. I'm saying honestly, do you know anything about me that would warrant something like that?

[More silence while she looks thoughtful.]

I...know you're going to teach a baby otter to swim. That's pretty cool. [...] But no, honestly the Giorno thing is the main appeal.

[And now she's pointing at Jotaro through the screen.]

Now you answer me. If you didn't know I was talking to you mostly because of those reasons, would you be as resistant as you're being now? Like, say I was still trying and you didn't have that idea of me in your head already. Would you have such a problem with me?

...Probably, but you're a pushy girl who doesn't know a whole lot about me and doesn't seem to like being patient.

[He shrugs, as best he can with an otter on his chest.]

If it makes you feel better, I'm not going out of my way to treat you differently, or anything. Is that what you thought, that I'd decided to just shit on you especially or something?

Honestly? No, it...doesn't make me feel better. At least if you were I'd feel like I could tell you to cut that shit out.

[After a moment, Izabel shakes her head.]

I don't know what I thought. You're so weird, I just... I don't get you a lot of the time. And I don't like being patient, life is short.

You'd probably get farther than you have if it weren't always about what you like and want.

...Why do you think I'm friends with Giorno and Kakyoin? Any ideas?

Because who the fuck wouldn't like them, they're fantastic.

[But that isn't her real answer, and she tugs her hat down over her eyes with a noisy sigh.]

Gonna go ahead and say it might have something to do with that whole thing where they want to do stuff for other people to make them happy and they give it their all whether they should or not, with what you just said about me.

...Actually, with both of them I started out pretty sure I was going to have to fight them.

[He closes his eyes a minute, more seemingly lost in thought than out of any desire to ignore her.]

Both of them give a damn about something bigger. Not just "about other people, instead of themselves". They believe in something. So I believe in them.

When are you going to show me that?

[She knows this. She knows all of this, so it shouldn't bother her, and yet...]

That's not the kind of thing that's so easy to just go "here, have this" about. Why should I feel like I have to tell you when I haven't even told Giorno explicitly because he's good at reading people like a book and you just admitted you're bad at people oh my god.

[Yep, sure had an argument with herself there and is just more frustrated for it. The hat only gets pulled down further. It's eating her.]

...Listen. I'm not impressive, or anything. Not like them.

"Why should I feel like I have to tell you"? Really?

Listen. [It's more emphasized this time, an actual request.] Not "why should I have to tell you" but "why should I feel like I have to". Do you get the difference?

No, I don't.

[And that, at least, is honest, and more on the side of confused than harsh.]

Shouldn't you feel like that because you want to forge that kind of bond with someone? In the long term, isn't that the point?

Yeah, that's -- that's what I'm saying, kind of.

[Hrmnrm.]

How do I say this, um... I worked with my boss for...I think like two of this place's years, if I'm thinking right? Shit's hard to tell sometimes. She's great, and she's my friend, but she doesn't know shit about me. Giorno's different, like, holy fuck what a mess that is, how'd I get to love this kid so damn fast, but it's still not something we just...talk about?

And then there's you, and you keep being all "be honest, be honest" and we aren't close, we don't even really like each other, so why do I feel like I should tell you things I haven't told the others, like you're...being me, I guess. Using words to get what you want. It doesn't make sense to feel like that.

...Remember when you asked me that one time, if you'd ever understand what it is that Giorno...I guess, whatever it is he says about me when I'm not around?

I think it's probably that. What you're trying to describe. But I don't know for sure, that's just a guess.

[Hadn't Kakyoin said something like that, too? The Star suits you, as a source of hope, and the Hierophant is one who pursues hope...]

Man. And if you were anyone else, I'd say you were just saying that to sound like a pretentious dick.

[But he's not anyone else, so yay?]

Anyway. I have something special like that. I do. It's not really anything like theirs, so maybe you'd think it's really small and dumb in comparison, but it's mine. I just -- and maybe it's silly -- I'd rather...not. Tell you. At least for right now. [Pause.] And whatever you do, don't compare this to the Stand thing right now. I already know. Except it's more...

Saying it now seems...wrong. It shouldn't just be because of this, right?

...Okay. I can respect that.

[...Hmmmm.]

Anyway, I think I've figured something out. I guess now it's just a matter of seeing if I'm right.

...You are totally going to drive me insane.

[She's accepted this. She's been defeated. Why are you like this?]

You wouldn't be the first and I doubt you'll be the last.

[...]

I appreciate the apology. From before.

[BUT SHE WANTS TO KNOWWW argh.

Oh.

[Wow, she almost forgot that was a thing. After a few seconds of not really knowing what to say to follow that, she tilts her head.]

She has a lot of blubber and a really thick hide but she does okay when it's not totally freezing, too. I think her shepherd mostly used her to carry stuff. Never saw him riding her or anything, which is what Hazel does now.

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