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[starmark]

. . . Yare yare. What is it? Hurry up and say something already.



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[silvercrusader]

what the fuck i just said IT'S NOT THAT BAD
i dont need a hat


does it really look that shitty

[Now you've given him DOUBT.]

[starmark]

i don't know it's just different

i guess not really bad but just weird because it's different from what i'm used to.

[silvercrusader]

well get used to it buddy this will take forever to grow out
at least its during summer
i might have died if hed done it in winter

[starmark]

at least you won't need to steal as much gel, right?

[silvercrusader]

i dont know
maybe
i dont know how to care for this hair
maybe i need to steal twice as much

[starmark]

yare yare this is why i leave my hair the way it is

i just make star cut it sometimes to keep it short

[silvercrusader]

i always figured you tried to grow it out but couldnt
or it looked stupid or something

[starmark]

no i stop time and have him cut it super fast so that's why nobody ever sees it get done.

[silvercrusader]

LIAR
anyway i know the truth if star had his way you'd grow it out so you two could match

[starmark]

what

did he tell you that

i know he didn't tell you that where did you get that idea from

[silvercrusader]

he definitely told me that
we have late night conversations while youre asleep
we sit in the bathroom

[starmark]

no you don't





are you serious

[silvercrusader]

yes

[No.]

the stand can pack a lot of meaning into an ora i tell you what

[starmark]

did you know he picked me up and ran with me one time

without my telling him to, i mean, he just got excited.

[silvercrusader]

what the fuck
why
where did you go

[starmark]

in search of pudding

he wanted it but it was too far away so he had to take me with him

[silvercrusader]

you need a stash like giorno has
have you seen his pudding stash in his room??
he has an entire SHELF dedicated to pudding

[starmark]

yeah, he hoards that stuff. he gave star a big basket of it for christmas, it's like the first thing they bonded over.

...

there was this one night, giorno was having a really bad time, so i offered to go out and walk around with him to keep him company. and i don't know, i wanted to give him the chance to be a kid, a little bit, so i had star pick him up and carry him on his shoulders.

that's usually what i try to do for giorno. sort of...make it so he can be a kid, sometimes.

[silvercrusader]

yeah

i think his birthday went well
you made a good call with the toys

[a beat, and then, hesitantly (if texts can be hesitant):]

i think he got to be more kidish this last week
maybe its good, if he starts thinking of me that way
maybe he can relax more
start to act his age
not like hes got to take responsibility for everything
you know he actually apologized for sherry?
told me if he was better at what he did he might have been able to revive her

[starmark]

...i think it's hard for him because the things that make it hard for him to be a kid are also the things that make him a good don.

and he's aware of that, so he feels like...like if he lets himself lighten up, he might be compromising his edge as a don, and that's unforgivable because other people are depending on him when he's in that role.

but i think you're right

and i think you more than anyone except maybe bruno, you feel like home for him because he remembers you from there

like how i have this whole huge family here and that's great but you and kakyoin are what feel like home to me

and my mom i mean but that's a different kind of home

[silvercrusader]

not the right kind of home
i mean i get what you're saying but
i'm not who i'll be in thirteen years

[starmark]

...you know jiji made me tell him, about what we did. young jiji, i mean, kakyoin tried to talk to him and it kind of blew up and then i had to go tell him everything. so i told him, the whole thing. start to finish. everything that went wrong. you trying to save me. killing him alone. all of it, i told him everything. even about star.

he's not my grandfather. not...the jiji we went to egypt with. but every once in a while he does something, without realizing it, without trying, and i can tell he's the same person.

usually that's when i need him to be jiji the most.

i don't think the things he needs about you are things that would get lost in thirteen years.

[silvercrusader]

[I hope so, is what he thinks. It's all very well to think that about Joseph, but when applied to himself, when he's staring at Giorno, who looks at him like he's someone to be admired--

But he's never been one to focus on the negative. And even if those doubts and terrors still bounce around his head, what he texts back is:]

did he tell you anything about your future?

[starmark]

giorno? i don't think he knows me in the future.

people have said i go back to university. i get a ph.d. and i guess i get married or something and have a daughter.

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[silvercrusader]

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