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[starmark]

. . . Yare yare. What is it? Hurry up and say something already.



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[starmark]

...I'm not saying I think this is going to happen, but worst case scenario, if it came down to me or Kakyoin, I would want you to help Kakyoin.

He'll be Kakyoin about it but he's still a lot more messed up than he lets on. And I might not be able to hold him up without doing that thing where I sacrifice myself for someone else, so.

[digiorno]

You know there's more than just me who wants to help, don't you? I'll help Kakyoin, but I'm not going to leave you alone.

[starmark]

I know. I really meant worst case scenario, like...everyone else in the world broke every limb in their body or something.

Like ABSOLUTE rock-bottom worst.

[digiorno]

So . . . in order for you to not sacrifice yourself while helping Kakyoin, you want me to help Kakyoin, thus leaving you free to sacrifice yourself in a different way?

[starmark]

No I mean

If he's fucked up, I know myself and I'll try to help him beyond my limits. To my own detriment.

If I know someone else is his safety net, I won't risk going past my limit. If I need help too that's a different question, what I'm trying to prevent is me going "I'm at my limit, but I have to keep going anyway because it's Kakyoin".

When it's something like this, I can't even start working on taking care of myself if he's not taken care of first. And it might turn out that I'm okay on my own, if I'm not destroying myself trying to hold up both of us.

[digiorno]

I see. That makes sense.

Then I'm his safety net, but I'm finding you one, too. Do you want Bruno or Jonathan?

[starmark]

...I think Jonathan, for this one.

I don't want to hurt him, with the topic and everything. But...I trust that he'd say to let him worry about being hurt or not, so long as it's helping me.

[digiorno]

I think he would, too.

Then I'll tell him, and I'll make sure he's ready.

[starmark]

I promise I'll say something if I need help. I won't be reckless.

[digiorno]

I know, Jotaro. I trust you.

When it's April, will you help me? Because I'll have to help everyone else.

[starmark]

Yeah. Let me know when, and I'll be there.

[digiorno]

. . . Most of the beginning. The sixth and the sixteenth.

April is the fourth month.

[starmark]

You, me, and Jolie will make three.

...April is cherry blossom month, in Japan.

[digiorno]

Is it pretty? I don't remember.

[starmark]

It's a huge deal. People have parties just to go out and look at the trees.

It's like a canopy of nothing but pink and white overhead, and the ground looks like it snowed, with all the petals.

[digiorno]

You must hate it, then. If it's pink.

[starmark]

I usually hate it for other reasons. Girls try to get me to go with them and then fight about who I should go with, and I just get disgusted.

...There's this thing. Mono no aware. It's part of appreciating cherry blossoms, because they're beautiful but transient. It's a Zen thing.

[digiorno]

If any girls try to bother you this April, Kakyoin will probably bite them.

Because they're only around for a little while, and the rest of the year you just have the memory?

[starmark]

Right. I think some of it too is that...as flowers, they wouldn't be as beautiful if they weren't impermanent? You appreciate them more because you know that they're fragile. You don't let their fragility take away from their beauty, you find a balance in the two, and the balance is something beautiful in itself.

[digiorno]

That's a very aggressive metaphor.

[starmark]

It occurred to me that I needed to shut up about halfway through but by then I was already halfway through.

Sorry.

[digiorno]

I said aggressive, which is not the same as bad.

[starmark]

Do you want to hear the part I left off, then?

[digiorno]

Yes, please.

[starmark]

It's the national flower of Japan. They symbolize life and mortality, and how you're supposed to accept things like destiny gracefully. A cherry blossom's natural span is short, but in that time it's beautiful.

They're the flowers of warriors.