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[starmark]

. . . Yare yare. What is it? Hurry up and say something already.



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[lapidarius]

do you seriously think i have ever once considered that before

[starmark]

i guess not if it took you this long to think about what we're going to tell my mom

we're going to be ok you know that right

[lapidarius]

i know that we are

it's your family i'm worried about. what if they don't approve of all this to the point that they think i'm in the way or something

it's just important to me that they at least tolerate my hanging around

they're the only family i have here

[starmark]

kakyoin my mom loves you

jonathan thinks you're the bee's knees or whatever the fuck people said about people they really like back then

nanna lisa hasn't kicked your ass yet so you're already way ahead of the game on that one because trust me if she didn't like you you'd know it

everyone thinks you're amazing why the hell should it make a difference that i kiss you sometimes

[lapidarius]

you know for a speech like that you could at least call me noriaki or something

[my my how the turntables]

i'm just worried, that's all. it's stupid. forget it.

[starmark]

nori

it's not stupid and i don't want to forget it

i'm trying to make you feel calmer about it, not make it sound like it's not important

if i'm doing that badly well i've been fucking up a lot of things that have to do with talking lately but i don't want to fuck up talking to you

so please don't just say forget it ok

[lapidarius]

[. . .]

sorry. i didn't mean it like that.

i just don't want to disappoint any of them somehow.

[starmark]

...can we talk about why you feel like you might disappoint them?

there's something that's making you nervous in particular, i can tell. is it the thought of telling my mom and having it go bad?

[lapidarius]

yeah, it's something like that

i don't know i'm just not good with talking to parents about things, i guess

i don't want to screw this up like i screwed everything up with mine

[starmark]

...ok well i'm pretty sure you didn't regularly call your mom a bitch so you're already better at it than i am sometimes

what i mean is neither one of us is great at this but i know we can figure it out

...maybe we should just be honest and not try to dress it up too much

[lapidarius]

will that really be okay

what about the whole grandkids thing

[starmark]

she can deal with it

it's not like she'd have any say in it even if you were a girl

[lapidarius]

maybe not but that doesn't mean i want to disappoint her

[starmark]

...

okay i don't mean this at you specifically, you just made me think of it is all

...i think my mom is a long stronger than we give her credit for sometimes. i mean we spent all that time trying to save her and everything and she was sick from her stand and stuff but

i don't know. more and more it's like. she doesn't roll with stuff because she's a pushover, she does it because she's tough as nails and can handle it, i guess.

[lapidarius]

No, I think that you're right. She's far from weak, I know that much. I just

[...]

hell, i don't know. maybe she'll be thrilled and nothing else will come of it i'm just nervous

that seems pretty stupid the more i think about it

[starmark]

it's ok to be nervous

...when we have each other's backs we can do anything together, right

[lapidarius]

Absolutely. We can't lose as long as we're together.

[starmark]

So this isn't any different.

That's what my feelings mean. There's no one else in the world that I could have that feeling with.

[lapidarius]

Yeah. Okay, I think I get it.

[...]

I'm only nervous because I care about you, and your family. So no matter how worried I might be, it'd be pointless to run away or turn my back on that. You know that, right?

[starmark]

I know.

...I wasn't exaggerating, either. They love you.

[lapidarius]

I know they do.

I just don't want that to end up changing.

[starmark]

No one is going to stop loving you.

[lapidarius]

Even if I'm not

[A pause.]

talking like this is stupid i'm just in my room

where are you right now, please come talk to me

[starmark]

I'll be there soon.

[And sure enough, here he comes.]

[lapidarius]

[GUESS WHAT you're getting a hug]