The first time I tried to do your side, I didn't like it.
[That makes him stop a second and think about it, though, before finally he just sort of laughs, low and rumbling. Kakyoin is touching the collar and that feels...
He didn't even know how it feels. Just that it's better than when Kakyoin avoids it. It's better when it doesn't feel like another of those terrible Jotaro things that makes Kakyoin recoil behind a blank smile and then go run and throw up from it.]
Though, the first time I tried my side I didn't really like it, either.
[He shrugs with a tilt of his head, his hair cascading over his eyes.]
I felt stupid. And guilty. And afraid. It made me feel things that were different and things I thought I wasn't supposed to. But there was a reason I didn't stop, and it was because I knew that whatever else happened, I was safe. Nothing...was going to happen, and I could make it stop whenever I wanted.
The first time I did your side, I felt like a bully. It wasn't even that I was afraid of hurting him or anything, I just...I didn't like what it made me feel.
[He sighs a little.]
But I like that when we do that, I'm everything to him. That part feels good. And I like that I'm taking care of him, even if it doesn't look that way on the outside. And I like how he gets so clingy when we're done, and looks at me like...like, probably, I was looking at you. Before.
I like it when you're everything to me, Nori. I know when you do it you're taking care of me. You're doing it with me, not just to me, y'know? We're both in it together.
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[That makes him stop a second and think about it, though, before finally he just sort of laughs, low and rumbling. Kakyoin is touching the collar and that feels...
He didn't even know how it feels. Just that it's better than when Kakyoin avoids it. It's better when it doesn't feel like another of those terrible Jotaro things that makes Kakyoin recoil behind a blank smile and then go run and throw up from it.]
Though, the first time I tried my side I didn't really like it, either.
[He shrugs with a tilt of his head, his hair cascading over his eyes.]
I felt stupid. And guilty. And afraid. It made me feel things that were different and things I thought I wasn't supposed to. But there was a reason I didn't stop, and it was because I knew that whatever else happened, I was safe. Nothing...was going to happen, and I could make it stop whenever I wanted.
The first time I did your side, I felt like a bully. It wasn't even that I was afraid of hurting him or anything, I just...I didn't like what it made me feel.
[He sighs a little.]
But I like that when we do that, I'm everything to him. That part feels good. And I like that I'm taking care of him, even if it doesn't look that way on the outside. And I like how he gets so clingy when we're done, and looks at me like...like, probably, I was looking at you. Before.
I like it when you're everything to me, Nori. I know when you do it you're taking care of me. You're doing it with me, not just to me, y'know? We're both in it together.