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Jojo-

This is something that would be better talked about in person, but I'm less likely to stumble over it if I write it out. Besides, if I do this then you can hold on to this message and never forget it.

I felt like I needed to say somethng today, but everything that first came to mind was something that's been said before or didn't need saying in the first place. 'Thank you for saving me', 'I'm glad that I met all of you', 'I don't regret anything that happened'--you already know all of that. There's no need to repeat myself.

Even so, I wanted to find something. It feels wrong to let today go unremarked upon, particularly since it looks like things in this city may be getting troublesome again. November twenty-eighth is the day I met you, and when I woke up from a months-long nightmare. And pretty soon , it'll be the day we met Polnareff.

I think I know what I want to say, and it's this. If I look at who I was on that day next to who I am on this one, I realize the most major difference: I'm happy. Even though I know things will get difficult the closer we get to January I am, without doubt or question, unbelievably happy. Because I know we'll be together. You, me, Polnareff, and all the others. And even if we can't be--if things change between now and then, or even further in the future--it will still be okay in the end. We aren't infallible and we never will be, but there isn't much that can keep any of us down for long.

When things start to get rough over the next fifty days...don't forget that. We'll all be fighting together, so none of us has to handle this by ourselves.

-Noriaki

[The response doesn't come for a while; maybe once, that would've been terrifying. But maybe by now they know each other well enough that the delay is just because Jotaro is reading this message over and over, and sort of forgetting that he needs to write back before he finally remembers and does so.]

i know what i want to say too. i'm pretty sure it's the same thing as what you said, and i'm just going to use less words to do it.

i love you too.

That would have been the shortest way to summarize it, yes.

[He'd been unfazed by the delay; that was the entire reason Kakyoin had written it out to begin with. Sometimes things needed to be thought out and examined in detail on both sides, and that took time.]

[And on occasion, it could be easily underlined in a fraction of the words Kakyoin had used to illustrate it in the first place.]

Are you worried?

honestly?

i'm not

for once in what seems like forever, i'm really not

things keep changing but it's like...it's like it's still okay somehow, because we're still here and that's not going to

and if one of us disappeared i'd miss you but i don't think it'd change my ability to be okay, the way i know it would've once

i don't wake up scared that you're not going to be there next to me anymore

and if i ever did i think i would try to keep being okay anyway, because i know it's not selfish to take care of myself — it's what you always wanted too

I'll tell you the truth, I'm still a little afraid of what'll happen if I'm the one to disappear. But I don't feel like it's some terrifying thing hanging over my head all the time anymore. And I think I understand by now that if you or the others left, it wouldn't be the end of the world. It would hurt, and I would miss you, but I would be okay too.

But something like that isn't important right now. Because you're right; we're still here. We can take care of ourselves and each other, and we'll figure out the rest as it comes along. So I don't think I'm worried either.

i know what i'd like to happen. if...you know. if you were the one to disappear.

can i be selfish and ask for it?

You can ask me for anything you want, Jojo.

wait for me.

i know it's selfish. you already waited seventeen years for me and then some.

but will you?

until i can get back to you again?

Without hesitation.

But if that's what ends up happening, I want you to keep me waiting. I want to hear all about everything you did, and I want to know you had a long time to be happy doing it.

I'll wait as long as it takes, Jotaro. You don't have to worry about that.

i'm still going to try to make sure that never happens. that things can somehow change. that this was a chance for us all to...fix it, or get it right, or something.

but if i can't then i'm glad we have a plan.

i'll stick to it. i promise.

I know that you will, Jojo. I believe in you, and in all of us. Don't worry, I'm not resigning myself to dying just yet; you'll have to try much harder than that to get rid of me.

As long as we know what we're doing regardless I'll do my best not to be afraid, whether things go one way or the other.

no, that's definitely one thing i learned about you a few years ago today

you're pretty hard to get rid of, and always put up a damn good fight

And I'm much tougher than I look.

I learned something important about you back then, too. Can you guess what that was?

i hit like a freight train

Yes, that's exactly it.

And also that you're much kinder than anyone who hits like a freight train should be. I find it charming, to be quite honest.

But you're lucky you didn't break my nose, or you would have been in big trouble when I woke up.

...kinder, huh

what was it that gave me away, that day? about being kind or whatever. what'd i do?

The obvious one is that you could've just killed me outright. Though I guess that could just as easily be explained as hoping to get information from me, you still could've taken me out and been done with it.

On top of that you didn't have anything to really gain from saving me, or from letting me come with you. But you did it anyway. As difficult as it was to figure out how to read you at first, that was impossible to overlook. I just came to the conclusion that you weren't the complete jackass you acted like.

well, you know

i guess i knew we were destined to fall in love

...

or at least that i thought you were cute and i wouldn't stand a chance of getting to do anything about it if you died on my living room floor

...

......

i'm just teasing. i um.

i'm glad you see a good person when you look at me, i think is what i want to say. because i trust your word, so if that's what you think, then that's what i must be.

You are a good person, Jojo. I've never really had any doubts about that, and I never will.

And you're pretty cute too, so that doesn't hurt either.

Edited 2016-12-01 05:23 (UTC)

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