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the one who went up against the mold
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i'm not sure i know where to start
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i mean did he do something or were you in a situation together or
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i don't know
it's hard for me to say, i never really had friends before, so i didn't know it was happening until afterwards, which i suppose must be strange to say
but there was a moment i knew he was someone i should fight for . . . when he was ready to sacrifice himself for our cause, to protect everyone else, to protect me
and i thought
no, i won't allow that
there's too much beauty in this person to let him be anything but just what he is now
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that he was willing to do that
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no, not really
i was frustrated because he thought that was the only option, and he wasn't listening to me, not then
but i wasn't angry. i understood why he felt that way.
sometimes, if someone is devoted enough to something, they'd do anything for it
and if the cause is protecting the weak i can't fault anyone for it
that was . . . his honor system, you could say
no matter what it takes, protect those who can't protect themselves
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would you have listened to him?
would you have died for him?
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if i knew then what i know now
no, i wouldn't have
i wouldn't have wanted to hurt him like that
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what if he were going to do it to show you how to save yourself
what would that make you feel?
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unworthy
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why did you
you answered me anyway
i don't understand
that hurt you but you answered me anyway
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i knew if you were asking it was because there was an important reason
that you wouldn't just say something to say it
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i guess not
someone died for me like that
i don't feel unworthy though i just feel
i don't understand why someone would die for me
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that isn't even close to being enough but i am
i don't know the answer
other than whoever it was must have cared about you more than anything
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i guess what bothers me about the one more than the other
the "so you can save yourself" instead of "so they can save you"
...
if it's so they can save you then they know that their death meant something, right
but
the other way it's like it only means something if they're right about you
doesn't it?
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which i suppose must mean they were very certain they were right
. . .
he would have
mine
that's why i didn't want to answer
because he was very certain, by the end, that i would succeed
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but you still think they were crazy for making a gamble like that
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if that's what you feel then that's what you feel
nobody else gets to say whether it's right or not, to feel that
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maybe not at them exactly but
just mad
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as long as you don't hurt anyone who doesn't deserve it
anger is just another way to hurt
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i'm curious if there's a list
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no
that's not what i meant
never mind just forget it then
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what did you mean
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don't hurt people unless they deserve it
people who deserve to be hurt are people who hurt people weaker than themselves
there are people here who do that
you seem like the kind of person who would want to know who they are
the same way you found out about that guy and his stand
are there people here who deserve it, who are they
i want to know too
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