...yeah. i think i get it, jiji. what you're saying, i mean. it's "my decision, my responsibility", right?
anyway the thing with my daughter is that i've been trying to fix some shit that's wrong with me, i mean like shitty things that i do that i shouldn't do. but i guess she remembers me as a person who didn't fix those shitty things, so she remembers a shitty person.
and i get that i'm not that person but i won't take her experiences away from her either. so it's complicated. i don't want to be the person she remembers but i can't excuse that in her memories, i was.
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anyway the thing with my daughter is that i've been trying to fix some shit that's wrong with me, i mean like shitty things that i do that i shouldn't do. but i guess she remembers me as a person who didn't fix those shitty things, so she remembers a shitty person.
and i get that i'm not that person but i won't take her experiences away from her either. so it's complicated. i don't want to be the person she remembers but i can't excuse that in her memories, i was.