...Yeah, I know that you don't. Which is fine--it's just the kind of person you are, that's all. I think it's likely that you're better suited to learning on your own terms and by being left to your own devices rather than given clear and rigid directions--I prefer being taught directly instead of tripping over mistakes until I find the desired result. Trial and error worked with Hierophant, obviously, but that's the exception.
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