... [Kakyoin took another slow breath to keep his voice even. He just had to speak honestly, that was all. So far it hadn't taken any sharp turn into disasters, and Kakyoin was starting to let himself hope that it wouldn't.]

So I'm the only one that can stop that, in other words. That's...okay. I'm not sure how just yet, but I think I can start there. If I can stop listening to that, then...neither of us will have to deal with it.

[Then it came down to which part of Kakyoin was more stubborn; the insistent self-loathing or the part that was completely sick of this shit]

I want to apologize again for being so stupid about all this, but...I think I'll start by guessing you'll say that isn't necessary, right?