[. . .]

I'm sorry. [Kakyoin started with that, once he was sure his voice wouldn't crack however shaky it sounded.] I'm trying--I've been trying this whole time to believe there's another way, and I know there could be. I shouldn't be afraid--I'm not afraid to die.

[But when it came down to it, it was hard to let himself believe any of this mattered when it could just stop without warning. Ishimaru and Abbacchio...if they were back home, then they were just dead. There was no saving that.]

I don't want to leave you alone. I don't want any of you to feel like this.