[It's his turn, then, to take a while typing. And to forget to tell Kakyoin he's doing it, but — maybe that's okay. Maybe he'll just know. He usually does.]
i love you so much
it happened once the fuck off back to sleep and something happened it was just like everything got so quiet i closed my eyes and it was just quiet
before it happened i kept acting up it was fun to push back to get in trouble to make trouble
but then one time i just...didn't i just didn't fight back i just didn't fight i just did what i was told
it felt wrong at first it felt bad kind of not bad enough to stop but just it didn't feel right it didn't feel right but then i did what i was told and
he petted me he said i did good and it didn't feel wrong anymore it felt like i did something right like i was safe and it didn't hurt and it was so quiet
i want to feel like that again not all the time but i i want i want to know i get to feel like that i get to fuck off back to sleep too sometimes
i love you
if you think i can do it by myself someday then i must be able to so i'll try
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[It's his turn, then, to take a while typing. And to forget to tell Kakyoin he's doing it, but — maybe that's okay. Maybe he'll just know. He usually does.]
i love you
so much
it happened once
the fuck off back to sleep
and something happened it was just like
everything got so quiet
i closed my eyes and it was just quiet
before it happened i kept acting up
it was fun to push back
to get in trouble
to make trouble
but then one time i just...didn't
i just didn't fight back
i just didn't fight
i just did what i was told
it felt wrong at first
it felt bad kind of
not bad enough to stop but just
it didn't feel right it didn't feel
right
but then i did what i was told and
he petted me
he said i did good
and it didn't feel wrong anymore
it felt like i did something right
like i was safe
and it didn't hurt
and it was so quiet
i want to feel like that again
not all the time
but i
i want
i want to know i get to feel like that
i get to fuck off back to sleep too
sometimes
i love you
if you think i can do it by myself someday
then i must be able to
so i'll try