[That was always the nightmare scenario, wasn't it? That Adrian would love him more and harder than he'd ever loved anyone before, and then something would happen, and it would be history repeating itself all over again. Like father, like son. Grief enough to raze a world in fire and blood — or just enough to seal himself up in a tiny dark box and wait the eternity it would take to die.
But he had Kakyoin. This time he had Kakyoin. And maybe it wasn't even enough, but —
But it was more than it could have been. Someone still there. Just like back in the beginning, holding his hand and keeping him awake and trying to remind him of a reason, any reason, to live.
Kakyoin isn't even the one who fell in love with him, and yet he stayed and kept Adrian's head above water. Not as a favor, not out of obligation, but...because. Just because. So that they'd both be there when he found his way home to them again.]
...Remember a while back, that time when we all changed our stuff around by mistake. You had Star and he had Hierophant and I was a vampire for a while. Remember...?
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[That was always the nightmare scenario, wasn't it? That Adrian would love him more and harder than he'd ever loved anyone before, and then something would happen, and it would be history repeating itself all over again. Like father, like son. Grief enough to raze a world in fire and blood — or just enough to seal himself up in a tiny dark box and wait the eternity it would take to die.
But he had Kakyoin. This time he had Kakyoin. And maybe it wasn't even enough, but —
But it was more than it could have been. Someone still there. Just like back in the beginning, holding his hand and keeping him awake and trying to remind him of a reason, any reason, to live.
Kakyoin isn't even the one who fell in love with him, and yet he stayed and kept Adrian's head above water. Not as a favor, not out of obligation, but...because. Just because. So that they'd both be there when he found his way home to them again.]
...Remember a while back, that time when we all changed our stuff around by mistake. You had Star and he had Hierophant and I was a vampire for a while. Remember...?