[He blinks, surprised, like it hadn't even occurred to him that that's pretty much exactly what he's been doing, but once it's pointed out to him, he has to take a minute and chew on it for a bit.]
...It makes me happy.
[His brow furrows slightly, and he says it like he's having a not-altogether-pleasant revelation of his own, more to himself than to Alucard.]
Makes me feel good. Like I'm doing something right...
[Ah. Hmm. So that's what it is — well, part of it, anyway.]
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...It makes me happy.
[His brow furrows slightly, and he says it like he's having a not-altogether-pleasant revelation of his own, more to himself than to Alucard.]
Makes me feel good. Like I'm doing something right...
[Ah. Hmm. So that's what it is — well, part of it, anyway.]
...Like I'm not a fuckup, I guess.