[He hesitates again, searching, tempted almost to try and motion something out with his hands as though he's hoping that moving them through the air will somehow put the words he needs into the palms of his hands.]
Because going along with you is...it feels more right than if I didn't. If you fucked around with me and I didn't back? That would be something that changed. I thought it would make you laugh, or...feel good, or...it's like sitting up with you all night. Why wouldn't I? Isn't that who we are?
...Maybe I was worried about it happening. Things ending up different, or something. Not being close like we were. Maybe I was just trying to keep that, I don't know.
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[He hesitates again, searching, tempted almost to try and motion something out with his hands as though he's hoping that moving them through the air will somehow put the words he needs into the palms of his hands.]
Because going along with you is...it feels more right than if I didn't. If you fucked around with me and I didn't back? That would be something that changed. I thought it would make you laugh, or...feel good, or...it's like sitting up with you all night. Why wouldn't I? Isn't that who we are?
...Maybe I was worried about it happening. Things ending up different, or something. Not being close like we were. Maybe I was just trying to keep that, I don't know.